Searching Da Cosmos

One week after jacob’s surgery and he is on the road to recover.  Still hanging at home but seems to be adjusting.  He definitely likes to see the humorous side to life.  What else is there to do but be as supportive as possible.  Not easy raising kids.  My almost 16 year old daughter is doing a good job of distancing herself from me.  Unfortunately she has too much angst.  Who knows, maybe a week in France will do her good.

Sunshine on a cloudy day

Hearing my son singing again so soon after his surgery makes me feel like there is sunshine on a cloudy day.  Our children give us so much strength and we give our children so much love.  I guess I have really been feeling like a parent lately, only now for the first time am I realizing that my kids teach me as much as I teach them.

If you do not want to be forgotten once you are dead, either write things worth reading or do things worth writing - Ben Franklin

Being and Nothingness

I hope to look at on 3/30/2012 as a day that Jake was cured of cancer.  I don’t know what it will be like for him to live his life with one eye but watching him go through this ordeal gives me hope and confidence he will do great.  It was not an easy day but Jake is a strong young man.  I know that he has a long recover but I hope that the mental wounds heal easy.  He has the support of his family and friends and I know that nothing will keep him down.

I love this kid so much and it makes me realize even in the worst of times how great a wife and two kids I have.  If there is a god then I would say he has is surely testing my son.  

A weekend of Robin Hood took us all away to a fantasy world where everything works out. I know that Jake is going to have a hard time with the surgery and recovery but I have faith in him and I promise to stay strong for him.

I love my family so much

Global warming for all of its bad side is making Boston a much warmer place to live.  I am discounting that we can still have our winter storm but the bulbs are coming up and today was a sunny warm day.  Another sign of spring unfortunately is pulling ticks off of KD after her romp in the woods with Summer.  

Jacob performed in Once on this Island which was the Wilson Middle School play.  It is great to see him in his element and loving every minute of the drama experience.  Dani too is in the same zone.  She gets so much joy with her singing lessons and continues to belt in out in the shower

I hate Mondays

I remember as a kid reading one of the philosophers describe angst - he described it as being and nothingness.  This is how I feel - empty, nothingness.  In times like these being a parent has so much angst.  I wish I could do more for my kids.  I wish I could do something for Jacob.  I feel like he is living in his own world and won’t let people in.  I know life is a series of tests we all must go through but knowing doesn’t make it easier.

I promise to the the best Dad I can.  This I hope will give me strength